The Story Behind Left Eye

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I am realllllly trying to keep my food down. Been throwing up every single thing I’ve eaten.. :( Even if I just nibble on cheerios or something, once there is substance in me, my body rejects it. I’m really trying, but I feel like the only way to get relief is to vomit. This is getting too serious… I’m already feeling all the side effects of bulimia.. Hyponatremia, hypovolemia, heart palpitations, extreme dehydration.. Sorry, nursing terminology, which makes no sense bc I’m gonna be a nurse but can’t seem to treat even myself of my own iniquities… I think I’m going to vomit… Bleh “/

Don’t trip over what other people do, cuz that’s outta your control. You’re in control of you. Be coo.

This whole emotional battle is getting harder and harder to deal w/. What makes it even more difficult is that i have no kinna supp

I’m really good at building up walls. Alot of walls. And pushing people away, esp when i may need in the most. Why? Bc I’ve always

You know you’re truly happy when the times you’re by yourself you can’t help but smile. But what about the times you can’t help but cry?.. 

Multimedia Message I hate to admit it, but i’m back to where i first was when i made this blog. Extreme anger, extreme sadness, crazy sleeping scheds, just moping around when i’m by myself. I’m totally disgusted w/ myself. But i can’t tell anyone. I can never tell anyone. I put up these walls which i know are the cause of my fall. But it hurts to let people in. I’m still scared. I’m still scarred. I’m just a broken heart, a broken soul trying to make due w/ the life i have. My family is breaking apart all over again, i’m shutting people out, i’m angry, i want to hit and demolish everything around me. I feel like i want to do damage. I want to break things to get these emotions out physically. I FUCKIN HATE THIS SHIT. I need help. Pronto. But where is everyone? They don’t know.

Can’t handle this. Had to make a quick exit. Smh.. Can’t study w/ alla this going on…

Some people just don’t get it. Stop smothering me.. Clingy-ness will only make me push you away. Gimme my freakin space -

Sometimes i think i belong in an insane asylum…