And I am a living testament of that. I know what it’s like to not want to wake up in the morning.. to want to just die and kill myself to stop everything, every negative thought, feeling, and emotion that went on in my mind and slowly what seemed to take over my body.
But here I am, alive and well, hoping to be that light to those of you who are feeling useless, worthless, ugly, hated, and fat, guilty, and ashamed. I am here to tell you that it is possible to get better. To be able to smile and really mean it. To laugh and not be fake. I am here a new woman, and God has made a way for me to see my life as a gift. I used to blame Him and question Him for why all these bad things were happening. But He gave me a little sense of hope, every day.. every 5 minutes. I had to fight with all that i could to not hurt myself. But with every 5 minutes that passed, i slowly learned how fill my mind with positive things and see the blessings in disguise.
Just wanted to check in and say that I AM HERE. And I am praying for all of you, sending you all the love and hope that you deserve. I know I dont know you, but I do know that God is in everyone of you, and He put that fight in all of us. And with that little fight and a little faith, it will grow if we let it. And you too, will be genuinely happy. Share a smile, because we all know what that means to us. Take care guys, and God be with you all, in all moments of your day. <3